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Monday, November 11, 2024
Veterans of Grief
I'm sure I have written a post like this before with a similar title. I am taking another stab at the subject. My youngest brother Keith was born on Nov 11th 1970 aka Veterans Day. . This is the 54th anniversary of his birth. I was born in September of 1964, so I was already 6 years old when he was born.
. Keith's last Veteran's Day was 16 years ago when he turned 38. He died 5 months later in an Elgin nursing home when I was 44. Since then I've turned 60 and he's perpetually 38. Keith loved math and I'm pretty sure if he was still around he'd call me up today to announce that he had now been alive for 90% of my lifetime. The truth is that he was on;y alive 63.33% of my lifetime time and that number goes down each year I outlive him.
Now Keith would want me to provide a more accurate accounting of that number by factoring in the 5 months between his 38th birthday and that day in April of 2009 when he shuffled off this mortal coil. Let's be real, Keith would want me to calculate the percentage down to at least the day, factoring in the leap days as well. He probably wouldn't be satisfied with even that and want it down to the last minute.
But That's not what I would want. What I would want of course, is that his multiple health problems were all resolved and that he was here with us celebrating his full deck plus 2 jokers (that's 54th please try to keep up) birthday with us. What I would want is that his children now in their 20s would still have their Dad with them instead of hardly remembering him or not remembering him at all. What I would want, is that instead of struggling to recall his legendary dumb jokes, there would be another 15 1/2 years worth of them to smile and nod at. But I did not get what I wanted. Instead, I got grief. Now Veterans Day means more than just Keith's birthday to me. It reminds me that I'm a veteran, a veteran of grief.
I'm going to spend the rest of this post unpacking the last sentence of the previous paragraph. When Keith died Amy and I had been attending a small group at our church for only a few weeks. We knew the leader of the small group pretty well because he was the children's ministry pastor and all our children were in the children's ministry at the time and we were both volunteering there. So when he showed up at Keith's visitation I wasn't too surprised. What did surprise me, however, was that the couple whose house the small group met at came to the visitation. We had just met them a few weeks before. They didn't have children, and they didn't attend the same service as we did. It really meant a lot that he came. He explained to me that a few years before when his father had died, he had a similar experience. Some people he hardly knew came to the funeral because they had lost someone and knew how important it was having people there not only to pay respect to the person they lost but to also be there for those who had lost someone. Both the couple who came to Keith's visitation and the people who had gone to his Dad's funeral had one thing in common, they were veterans of grief.
When I think of a war veteran I think of someone who's been through something devastating and life-altering and has been permanently changed by it. Grief has that same effect on you. There is something else I've learned about veterans they try to be there for each other. There is a camaraderie, a family bond. It's a community that doesn't require serving in the same unit or even the same war. The same could be said about a veteran of grief. I don't know if this is true of all veterans be it war, grief, or something else. But as I dealt with losing Keith, empathy for those encountering the same thing grew in me. I was never one to shy away from the funerals of people I knew, but I started gravitating to the funerals of family members of people I knew. As a veteran of grief, I have been able to comfort people and try to help in tangible ways as people begin their journeys with loss and grief.
Keith is often front and center in my heart and mind during these times. I have not yet lost someone closer than a sibling and have not experienced what it is like to lose a child, a parent, or a spouse. I have done my best to comfort those who have lost more significant people in the time since Keith's passing. A dear friend lost his father and wife in short order. I have to be honest I can't imagine losing Amy. I know it would devastate me completely and while I know God would bring me through it, I know it's just a drop in the bucket in comparison to losing Keith. Amy herself lost both her parents within a few years of each other. It broke my heart to see her "orphaned" knowing that her loss was far greater than mine. Yet knowing how God has helped me through this lesser loss of Keith has helped inform me how I can minister to others as they become more experienced with grief.
I still miss Keith, especially on days like today. Tomorrow my remaining brother and I head over to Keith's house to help his widow with some practical needs. It will be bittersweet just a day after his birthday. All my siblings have tried to look out for our sister-in-law and our niece and nephew and I think we would all say that we wished we could do more. In sports veteran players often act as a surrogate coaches to rookies and other new team members. Grief is not a team that anyone chooses to play for. Isaiah 53:3 prophesies about Jesus describing Him as a man of sorrows and acquainted with grief. Jesus, His word, and His people have equipped me as a veteran of grief. I'm not sure if I'm paying forward, or pointing backward but regardless of the direction I'm so glad to try to be there for others when grief has them upside down.
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Saturday, April 20, 2024
A to Z 2024: R is for R R R Very Funny. if You think I'm going to respect Lima Beans.

For The A to Z Challenge this year, I am focusing on everyday holidays. Each day there are multiple unusual things to celebrate. Every day of the challenge I look for an event taking place that day and pair it with the letter of the day. I have also made up 5 holidays to coincide with the vowel days of the challenge. At the end of each post I will share a special song of the day for that day's letter. At the end of the month, these songs will be assembled in a to z keepsake playlist on Spotify. Every day is a celebration, let's unwrap today's together.
April 20th is National Lima Bean Respect Day.
I do not need an entire day to respect lima beans. For me a minute would be too much time. To misquote Snoopy in Your A Good man Charlie Brown: I am a Lima Bean hater, a Lima Bean despiser and a Lima Bean loather. Or to misquote Greg Brady in the Brady Bunch episode," My sister Benedict Arnold": Lima beans are on the top of my bad vegetable list, the bottom of my bad vegetable list and every bad vegetable in-between.
I grew up in the 70's and we were all members of the clear your plate club. If my parents served it we ate it, or we hid it, or we fed it to the dog. I've always been a big fan of food, and there's hardly a food I don't enjoy. Growing up, I was not really big on most vegetables, I could eat corn or carrots but anything else was a stretch for me. But the worse of the worst was the lima bean.
I absolutely hate lima beans. I would not eat it on a bet. As I've got older I've learned to enjoy most vegetables and tolerate the ones I don't enjoy. I am actually a big fan of most beans black, pinto, kidney, garbanzo. Generally I lead the league in legumes. But I can not bring myself to eat a single lima bean. It is probably the only food I won't eat. I have strong preferences against some food like olives, but in a pinch I can eat one. Luckily my wife loves olives, so it never comes to that.
My hate for lima beans is legendary in my family. Just like my kids grew up knowing that I love The White Sox, Randy Stonehill, Libraries, and diving off the high dive, they also discovered I hate lima beans. So each Christmas for several years I could always count on that they would wrap up a can of lima beans for me.
I'm not sure why April 20th is National Lima Bean Respect Day. If it were up to me I'd ban the Holiday all together. If I can't do that I would just make it 19 day earlier. Because a day honoring lima beans has to be some sort of April Fools Joke.
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The song of the day Is Road to Zion by Petra
Here is a snippet of the song performed live ...
Here is the entire song ...
The A to Z mix tape now contains 18 songs.
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Friday, April 5, 2024
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Monday, April 1, 2024
A to Z 2024: A is for Adult Children

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Tuesday, January 2, 2024
Wordless Wednesday: Beautiful Christmas Tree
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Tuesday, July 4, 2023
Tuesday, April 11, 2023
She's A Wonderful Wife
I have a routine when it comes to my A to Z challenge posts. I schedule the time of the post for the date of the post. For example, today is April 11th or numerically 4/11 so I would generally schedule my post for 4:11 a.m. so people could see it as they were checking their computers in the morning.
This by the way is not an A to Z post but I am posting this at 4:11 in the morning because April 11th is a very significant day in my life. It is the day I married my wife Amy. Today is almost as significant as that day as it is our 25th wedding anniversary.
I have scheduled my A to Z post at 4:11 p.m. It talks about my favorite movie It's A Wonderful Life.
In that film, the main character gets a glimpse of what life might have been like if he was never born and gets to realize what a wonderful life he had.
In December of 2005, our 3rd and final child was born and 2 days after they were released from the hospital I rushed Amy to the emergency room. They did tests and her heart was working at 10% capacity. I remember driving back from the emergency room to my house with 3 children between the ages of 3 days and 6 years old and I got a glimpse of what my life might look like If Amy was gone. I prayed on the way home and asked God to restore her to health.
Thankfully Amy was back to 100% use of her heart and her kidneys and was home to our family in a few short days. We were never given an adequate reason for the occurrence but we believe it was due to a lack of proper hydration after the C-section.
I really didn't need an angel to show me the worth of my wife. We were best friends for 8 years before she signed the Marry Dave Agreement. She takes the best care of me and our children. Often preparing and perfecting foods for us that she doesn't even like to eat. While she is just a sinner that said I Do, she is a loving, Godly influencer on me and our children.
I have had the opportunity in the past 5 years to substitute teach in the same building where she works as a school psychologist. I have never seen anyone take their job so seriously and still love on the children and show compassion and concern to the teachers, administration, and parents. We also have worked side by side the last 2 summers working concessions at a ballpark where she would bring sunshine even in a two-hour rain delay.
So you see she really is a wonderful wife. Happy Anniversary Amy. You really do complete me.
Monday, June 20, 2022
"A Song About Baseball"
Sunday, April 17, 2022
I May Have This Read at my Funeral
Today is Easter Sunday. Well it still is in my time zone. After church today I was driving to a family gathering and I heard this song. The song is over 30 years old and I have heard it plenty of times. As I listened to it today and reflected upon the lyrics and thought about it in the context of Easter. I realized I'm accepted by Christ, and He loved me so much to die for my sins and his resurrection shows that His love is packed with power. I hope these lyrics minister to you today as much as they did to me .
"I'm Accepted" | |
by Degarmo & Key | from the 1989 album The Pledge I May not be rich Don't wear fashion clothes Don't live in a mansion Don't have much that shows Never won a contest in popularity Don't have much to offer But Jesus still loves me I'm accepted, accepted I'm accepted by the one who matters most. Never set a record in sports agility Never was magnetic in personality That don't really matter I'll do the best I can 'Cause there's a God above me Who loves me like I am I'm accepted, accepted I'm accepted by the one who matters most. If you think you're a loser When you fail it seems at everything you do Just remember there's a Savior And you are worth enough He gave his life for you I'm accepted, accepted I'm accepted by the one who matters most. I'm accepted, accepted I'm accepted by the one who matters most. I'm accepted, accepted I'm accepted by the one who matters most. |
Tuesday, February 22, 2022
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Friday, November 26, 2021
Feline Friday: When the House is Full, Our Cats are MIA.
I am sort of participating in Feline Friday at Comedy Plus today, I say sort of participating because I am not following their prescribed rules of posting a picture, cartoon or video of a cat. What I offer instead is a cow eating grass style anecdote of why our scaredy cats hide when ever people and especially dogs visit our abode as they did yesterday for Thanksgiving. 6 relatives and a dog-in-law partook in turkey, ham, cranberries and yams yesterday and our cats blipped off the radar into the basement as they are wont to do. I could take a picture of them now as they are in full post holiday hover mode in the next room but in this case no picture is the best picture of what happens when visitors come to call.
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Thursday, November 11, 2021
Reflections on Keith's birthday.
Saturday, October 16, 2021
I'm trying an experiment.
It's been quite a while since I've posted here. So I have set my timer for 15 minutes have put on Larry Norman radio from pandora on Alexa which is playing Rich Mullin's oddly enough. I am going to just type for 15 minutes and see if I can produce a short message.
As the school. year started this year, for about 3 weeks I was working 3 jobs. I have had a long term sub assignment as an art teacher at my favorite elementary school. I also had been working along with my wife and daughter at a minor league baseball park selling concessions. There was a section in the employee handbook that said I had to disclose to my supervisor if I wrote in a blog, but I think that was written 20 years ago when blogging was more common place. The problem was that my supervisors would change with almost every shift and the supervisors I did tell didn't know what a blog was. I also continue to work 2 nights a week at the movie theatre. I was very glad when the baseball season ended in early September and I could get back to the relative ease of working only 2 jobs.
The problem with getting back into blogging was 2 fold. The first our family has 3 birthdays in a 3 week period in September which kept us all on our toes. The 2nd is that once you get too busy to do something like blogging or reading which both came to an abrubt halt it's hard to get them back going again.
I lost 30 pounds this Summer. The trick will be not to find it again this winter. I am counting calories consistently for the first time in my life and it seems to be working okay for me. My wife and I are doing it together which is better than going it alone.
My timer just went off so I will continue this again hopefully soon with the opening sentence. I always told myself that when I got under 250 pounds I would start running again.
Music listened to during past 15 minutes:
Larry Norman - UFO
Rich Mullins - If I Stand
Randy Stonehill - King of Hearts
Rescue Story - Zach Williams
Why Don't you look into Jesus - Larry Norman
Sunday, April 4, 2021
1921 A Tale of 13 Presidents
Happy Easter!
Sundays are traditionally days off for the A to Z challenge and while this Sunday is no exception, I have decided to include an A to Z Easter egg today by listing all the presidents of the U.S. who were alive in 1921 either before, during or after their presidency. I have the two presidents who were in office in 1921 in bold.
1921 President Chart
#. President (date of birth-date of death) | Time in office | Years lived prior to 1921 | Years lived after 1921 |
26. William Howard Taft (9/15/1857-3/18/1930) | 1909-1913 | 64 | 9 |
27. Woodrow Wilson (12/28/1856-2/3/1924) | 1913-1921 | 65 | 3 |
28. Warren G. Harding (11/2/1865-8/2/1923 | 1921-1923 | 56 | 2 |
29 Calvin Coolidge (7/4/1873 - 9/5/1933 | 1923-1929 | 48 | 12 |
30. Herbert Hoover (8/10/1874-10/20/1964) | 1929-1933 | 47 | 43 |
31. Franklin Roosevelt (1/30/1882 - 4/12/1945) | 1933-1945 | 39 | 24 |
32. Harry S Truman (5/8/1884 -12/6/1972) | 1945-1953 | 37 | 51 |
33. Dwight D. Eisenhower (10/14/1890 -3/28/1969) | 1953-1961 | 31 | 48 |
34. John F. Kennedy (5/29/1917 -11/22/1963) | 1961-1963 | 4 | 42 |
35. Lyndon B Johnson (8/27/1908 -1/22/1973) | 1963-1969 | 13 | 52 |
36. Richard M. Nixon (1/9/1913 -4/22/1994) | 1969-1974 | 8 | 73 |
37. Gerald R. Ford (7/14/1913 -12/26/2006) | 1974=1977 | 8 | 85 |
39. Ronald Reagan (2/6/1911 - 6/5/2004) | 1981-1989 | 10 | 83 |
Sunday, January 17, 2021
How to get through 2021: Day by Day
I volunteer with our church youth group, It is for 6th graders through 12th graders. Until recently it was two separate youth groups one for 6th 7th and 8th graders and one for 9th through 12th graders meeting on separate nights of the week. During the Summer we would allow the incoming 6th graders to join the middle school group and the outgoing 8th graders to attend both groups. As the Summer would draw to an end I would give the outgoing 8th graders a short (2-3 minute) commencement on their last night of the younger group.
In 2016 my son Charlie was one of the kids moving up to the high school group. I challenged the students to have a "2020" vision of what they hoped to achieve in High School especially how they could be used by God in their new schools.
Little did any of us know about what the year 2020 held for us. In fact my son's senior year was progressing quite normally until March 13th turned out to be his last day of high school that actually met at the high school. Since that day, 2020 was a rather tumultuous year (Understatement Alert).
The events of the past 2 weeks make 2021 look like it's going to be more of the same. How do we get through another year like that?
Sunday, June 21, 2020
Muzak Lessons: Fathers Day Edition
Muzak Lessons: Fathers Day Edition
Like clockwork every time he sees an opening
In a conversation about the way things used to be
Well I'd just roll my eyes and make a bee-line for the door
But I'd always end up starry-eyed, cross-legged on the floor
Hanging on to every word
Man, the things I heard
It was harder times and longer days
Five miles to school, uphill both ways
We were cane switch raised, and dirt floor poor
'Course that was back before the war
Yeah, your uncle and I made quite a pair
Flying F-15's through hostile air
He went down but they missed me by a hair
He'd always stop right there and say...
That's something to be proud of
That's a life you can hang your hat on
That's a chin held high as the tears fall down
A gut sucked in, a chest stuck out
Like a small town flag a-flyin'
Or a newborn baby cryin'
In the arms of the woman that you love
That's something to be proud of
Son graduatin' college, that was mama's dream
But I was on my way to anywhere else when I turned 18
Cuz when you gotta fast car you think you've got everything
I learned quick those GTO's don't run on faith
I ended up broken down in some town north of L.A.
Working maximum hours for minimum wage
Well, I fell in love, next thing I know
The babies came, the car got sold
I sure do miss that old hot rod
But you sure save gas in them foreign jobs
Dad, I wonder if I ever let you down
If you're ashamed how I turned out
Well, he lowered his voice, then he raised his brow
Said, lemme tell ya right now
That's something to be proud of
That's a life you can hang your hat on
You don't need to make a million
Just be thankful to be workin'
If you're doing what you're able
And putting food there on the table
And providing for the family that you love
That's something to be proud of
And if all you ever really do is the best you can
Well, you did it man
That's something to be proud of
That's a life you can hang your hat on
That's a chin held high as the tears fall down
A gut sucked in, a chest stuck out
Like a small town flag a-flyin'
Or a newborn baby cryin'
In the arms of the woman that you love
That's something to be proud of
That's something to be proud of
Yeah, that's something to be proud of
That's something to be proud of
Now that's something to be proud of
The second song was Busy Man by Billy Ray Cyrus which warns about the other side of providing for your family and that is losing focus of why you're working in the first place. I'm more of a Cat's in the Cradle kind of guy, but this has a happier outcome.
Billy Ray Cyrus Lyrics
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Saying Daddy could we play a little one on one
You pat him on the back and say not now son I'm a busy man
His sister's out on the sidewalk settin' up a lemonade stand
Hey daddy don't you want to buy a glass from me
You say maybe later can't you see I'm a busy man
You got to go got to run hit it hard and get it done
Everyone can see you're going far
You got responsibilities a crazy schedule that you keep
And when you say that time's a wastin'
You don't know how right you are busy man
There's a woman in the bedroom crying sayin' I thought we had plans
You say honey I'm sorry I'll make it up
When the job slows down and I'm not such a busy man
You got to go got to run...
Have you ever seen a headstone with these words
If only I had spent more time at work
There's a call one day from the office they need you down in Birmingham
You say no way the weekend's mine
I got plans with the kids and a date with my wife I'm a busy man
You got to go got to run take a break and have some fun
Those that love you most say you've come far
Got some new priorities in that schedule that you keep
And when you say that time's a wastin'
Now you know how right you are busy man busy man
Well I'm off to work. Happy Father's Day.
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